What If We..

What if we could start again
..and just stopped running!
What if we looked back
..staring back at us in vain!

Why did we just cease to listen
..to every beat in unison?
What if you could hear
...and not watch these eyes glisten!

Where would we be?
If we just cared a little more
Would we still be we?
...even if all we did was ignore!

what if we just tried
...and hold on a little tighter
making this burden
...but a little lighter!

What if we could hit rewind
Try this one last time
Would it be any different?
Staring at us staring back in line

Would it end any other way?
..If i just didn't walk away
leaving you alone to wonder
What if we...?

Parallel Thought Repulsion

Meaningless
pushed and pulled
through arbitrary dimensions
Emulating differences in the same,
the Fatal Contradiction
Redefining the sane!

Recombined
fused with idle spinning.
Forging the distorted lie,
these lines in between
with apparent coherency
and ingenious discrepancies
blurring the boundaries
of this new systematic hell!

Put in perspective
these inconsequential banalities
and childish banter
all but shape the future
reiterating the errors of yesterday

Skewed

Conceptualized
Vizualized
Realized
Quantized
... Denied!
how long was it before i fell?

does it even matter?
when even these parallel thoughts repel...

Despite

Despite my scarred reflection
and all these shadows clinging to me
enveloped by misconception
and all i hoped to be

Despite these empty words
and all the false promises
Despite the murmurs of self-delusion
the comfort of an illusion

despite the desperation
of reaching beyond
of holding on
to your hand
of standing in the rain
of removing the traces
my heartfelt laceration

despite all the wounds
the ones i see
and those you cant
i still look up at the sky
scratching the surface of the drops that fall

despite these misgivings
and all you did to me
i still hold your hand
just in spite

despite of what i know
i look away