Descending

(this one was written very long ago... found it recently...so posted it now.... forgive the immaturity!)

Disillusioned ideals
Misguided fortunes
Hiding behind disguised failures
Descending so low.

Descending in to agony
Down the faded line
Of love and lust
Of hate and self loathing

Falling into the depths
Of mental writhing
Battling the unseen tear
The unheard cry

Putting on a façade of valor
Masking my ghostly pallor
Descending so low
So low

Breeding unseen demons
Long laid to rest within myself
Yet I laugh
Deceiving……descending

Deceiving the “conscienceless”
Mocking the “soulless”
Unknowing of my own
Slowly burning away

Tormented by own reflection
Tortured by my own touch
Sickened by my own breath
Deadened by my own life

Reeking of decadence
I can’t stand my own decay
I can feel myself
Slowly slip away

Inside Her Eyes!

Inside her eyes
flows timeless beauty
deceiving an ageless curse
coursing through her veins!

Inside her eyes
lies always the gleam of hope
the gaze of perfection
juxtaposing inadequacy!

Inside her eyes
rapturous clarity of the sky, dominating rage of the sun
paralysing fear in the night
tearful sorrow in the rain!

Inside her eyes
an unfathomable depth
hiding the priceless answers of life
the clandestine secrets in death!

Inside her eyes
there dwells the uncontrollable force
to love and it will be unconditional
to hate and it will be unconventional!

Inside her eyes
we stare into the void
in constant search for the source
where her soul once was!