Descending

(this one was written very long ago... found it recently...so posted it now.... forgive the immaturity!)

Disillusioned ideals
Misguided fortunes
Hiding behind disguised failures
Descending so low.

Descending in to agony
Down the faded line
Of love and lust
Of hate and self loathing

Falling into the depths
Of mental writhing
Battling the unseen tear
The unheard cry

Putting on a façade of valor
Masking my ghostly pallor
Descending so low
So low

Breeding unseen demons
Long laid to rest within myself
Yet I laugh
Deceiving……descending

Deceiving the “conscienceless”
Mocking the “soulless”
Unknowing of my own
Slowly burning away

Tormented by own reflection
Tortured by my own touch
Sickened by my own breath
Deadened by my own life

Reeking of decadence
I can’t stand my own decay
I can feel myself
Slowly slip away