Me&Me (An Illusion Of Conjunction)

What is the point?
deliberating existence
A complete waste of mind, space and time
Was there ever any hope?
or even a misguided sense of purpose?
A feeling of random helplessness (self induced)
Lulled into a false sense of dignity (self infused)
Minion to utter listlessness
Praying to the virtue of suspended rigidity!

Wake Up!
Wake Up!
Fail
(This is not how it was supposed to be!)

Where am i now?
if not in the dream of waking
What is this i feel?
if not my slow demise in the making
Who is this i see?
(in this stained mirror)
if not the shattered reflection of me & me!

Wake Up!
Wake Up!
Deny
(This is not me!)

Self-negation
was this ever in my control?
Self-desolation
Coward... Crawl back into thy hole!
Self-degradation
waste away into obscurity
Self-dissolution
merge into pitiful depravity
Self-obsession
realize the human malfunction
Self-consumption
its eating away at me!
Self-consolation
and the illusion of salvation
Self-destruction
The end of me & me

"The illusion of conjunction is what holds us to what we love most... ourselves!"