hours after dark
the mind struggles on
to grasp the unthinkable
before the break of dawn
of unreasonable expectations
with hope long forlorn
As the midnight oil burns
through the endless void
of yesterday's failures
the past grips with fright
echoes and scratches
relentless verses of pen to paper
it hurts us so
but not as much as the promises we have to deliver
regret and tears uncried
we are screaming from within
glances of the outsiders eye
watching with anticipation implied
slowly degrading
rusted by intellect not our own
faded like the text we read
forced not to succumb to our yearning
but the night wears on and on
with no signs of respite
we have no choice to accept
that we are alone in this foresight
now that the lines begin to blur
and our hands tremble with a fatigue till then unknown
we look at the remainders of what we have become
smileless minions with bloodshot eyes!
throwing idle curses at our years
abusing the old and the young
those who do not know what it is to be here
who are not accustomed to a printed fear
faced with the blankness of 20 sides
it all comes back with terrifying speed
now we wish we actually did when we lied
and could write now rather than wait and bleed
will our sacrifices pay off?
or will we have to stand in line
with the rest who didn't even try
and suppress the then useless cry
where did the system go wrong?
the tragedy of our time
don't they yet understand?
a sheet full of numbers
do not maketh a man!
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Lament of the Optimist
With each day grows
a new hope with every new breath
and joyous children's laughs
a heart won with their screams of glee
So we look at the sun
And gaze upon the light
yes... i was among the "we"
Ne'er darkened by the bleak of night
The world 'tis such a lovely place
filled with cheer, held by charm
Naught can evil do here... naught can evil be
Where the young can live without fear...without a shadow of harm!
The nights we danced late into
under the twinkling of the stars
With thoughts so pure...so true!
And no sadness dwelt... and none touch'd by scars!
Reeling in idealism
there will come a time when the lesson
must be taught
And thus begins the downfall of optimism
And so i wake...
To a life long forgotten
Or purposefully shunned as troubled sleep
as the tides of reality heighten
The scars begin to deepen
Happiness now an effort
i grope for the light
Yes... the same light i oft overlooked
suffocating as the walls enclose!
What good was such facetiousness?
When the truth is grayer than once even thought
What use was such indulgence?
When we knew there would come a time
Where it would all be undone!
Now greater strain on those eight chains
The simple smile now burdened
Thirty six signs of vain
nd joy has to be bargained!
No..the world is not the lovely place i thought it to be
Children's screams of glee
but a distant whisper of reminiscence
Of a once overrated grace!
What will you now sing of??
when our Eden crumbles to dust!
What will u do now?
when you are finally introduced to lust!
As these lines flow black... as our future
none can save us our own demise.. the impending doom!
Long shall we yearn for yesterday
for the nights we danced into!
But none shall come
even your God begins to bleed
As the agnostic drops to his knees
I.. the optimist... begin to weep!!
( our tears will drown us all)
a new hope with every new breath
and joyous children's laughs
a heart won with their screams of glee
So we look at the sun
And gaze upon the light
yes... i was among the "we"
Ne'er darkened by the bleak of night
The world 'tis such a lovely place
filled with cheer, held by charm
Naught can evil do here... naught can evil be
Where the young can live without fear...without a shadow of harm!
The nights we danced late into
under the twinkling of the stars
With thoughts so pure...so true!
And no sadness dwelt... and none touch'd by scars!
Reeling in idealism
there will come a time when the lesson
must be taught
And thus begins the downfall of optimism
And so i wake...
To a life long forgotten
Or purposefully shunned as troubled sleep
as the tides of reality heighten
The scars begin to deepen
Happiness now an effort
i grope for the light
Yes... the same light i oft overlooked
suffocating as the walls enclose!
What good was such facetiousness?
When the truth is grayer than once even thought
What use was such indulgence?
When we knew there would come a time
Where it would all be undone!
Now greater strain on those eight chains
The simple smile now burdened
Thirty six signs of vain
nd joy has to be bargained!
No..the world is not the lovely place i thought it to be
Children's screams of glee
but a distant whisper of reminiscence
Of a once overrated grace!
What will you now sing of??
when our Eden crumbles to dust!
What will u do now?
when you are finally introduced to lust!
As these lines flow black... as our future
none can save us our own demise.. the impending doom!
Long shall we yearn for yesterday
for the nights we danced into!
But none shall come
even your God begins to bleed
As the agnostic drops to his knees
I.. the optimist... begin to weep!!
( our tears will drown us all)
Monday, November 17, 2008
The Sublime Nightmare (Please wake me..)
And the darkness wears on
fatigue saps my soul
Time to break the chains of today
on the bed i lay!
I close my eyes
and feel myself slowly slip away
Into Hypnos' sweet arms
and all waking woes fade to gray!
But bliss is oft short lived
and with it comes a horror
like never before
Ensnared by unadulterated terror!
Who am i staring at?
a bullethole in my shadow!
The device in my control
I can't embrace what I'm seeing!
The noose of fear grips tighter
smothering me!
Now its hard to breathe
can it get any worse?
Then a hand grips me
Not the hand that wakes
Not the hand I hoped for
a hand dripping red.... and its yours
I cry out so loud
enough to wake God!
and ask him to release me
from this Sublime Nightmare!
Please wake me...!
fatigue saps my soul
Time to break the chains of today
on the bed i lay!
I close my eyes
and feel myself slowly slip away
Into Hypnos' sweet arms
and all waking woes fade to gray!
But bliss is oft short lived
and with it comes a horror
like never before
Ensnared by unadulterated terror!
Who am i staring at?
a bullethole in my shadow!
The device in my control
I can't embrace what I'm seeing!
The noose of fear grips tighter
smothering me!
Now its hard to breathe
can it get any worse?
Then a hand grips me
Not the hand that wakes
Not the hand I hoped for
a hand dripping red.... and its yours
I cry out so loud
enough to wake God!
and ask him to release me
from this Sublime Nightmare!
Please wake me...!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Shackled to Sanity
Relive
the pleasures of arbitarity
where ignorance is bliss
And thoughts lack co-linearity!
Forever
locked in the prison
of enclosed mentality
Self-imposed hindrance
and drones to passivity!
Remember
salvation denies those in obscurity
and those chained
to the shackles of symmetry!
Never
surrender to sanity
nor align to conformity
For the bleakest
is the gray of reality!
Forget
myopic misdirected vanity
and realize the truth
Relive... Forever... Remember... Never... Forget
The true victor is insanity!!!
the pleasures of arbitarity
where ignorance is bliss
And thoughts lack co-linearity!
Forever
locked in the prison
of enclosed mentality
Self-imposed hindrance
and drones to passivity!
Remember
salvation denies those in obscurity
and those chained
to the shackles of symmetry!
Never
surrender to sanity
nor align to conformity
For the bleakest
is the gray of reality!
Forget
myopic misdirected vanity
and realize the truth
Relive... Forever... Remember... Never... Forget
The true victor is insanity!!!
Sunday, November 2, 2008
BloodProm (BimboTiCide v2.0)
Giggling in mass hysteria
Blonde bimbos amassed
like an infestation
of rouge and ruby-red
The night of many dreams
Has finally come true
O... how happy they look
They obviously had no clue!!
All dressed in white or pretty pink
so pure...so true
with plunging necklines
That even the sun was blotted out by the view
Their escorts wait in silence
for their dates in "glee"
with the hope of getting lucky
With no idea of what is to be...
Bloodred punch in plastic exterior
the pitiful ones... they actually think they can dance!!
the best night if their lives
The last night of their Lives!
And this year's prom king and queen are....
the descending crown
in perfect harmony
with the ascending blade
The crown rests on her head
the rest of her rests on the ground
His starched shirt now crimson red
it has begun... its time for PromPain!!
Run..
high-heeled helter-skelter
the masked savior swings again and again
bloodlust laugh above feminine yells!
Yaaaaay!!
I killed the prom queen
they deserved it anyways
But i'm truly sorry for the mess!!
Back to my 6X9
received with pats on the back
they cant hold me here much longer
Cant wait to be back... Next year!!!!!
Blonde bimbos amassed
like an infestation
of rouge and ruby-red
The night of many dreams
Has finally come true
O... how happy they look
They obviously had no clue!!
All dressed in white or pretty pink
so pure...so true
with plunging necklines
That even the sun was blotted out by the view
Their escorts wait in silence
for their dates in "glee"
with the hope of getting lucky
With no idea of what is to be...
Bloodred punch in plastic exterior
the pitiful ones... they actually think they can dance!!
the best night if their lives
The last night of their Lives!
And this year's prom king and queen are....
the descending crown
in perfect harmony
with the ascending blade
The crown rests on her head
the rest of her rests on the ground
His starched shirt now crimson red
it has begun... its time for PromPain!!
Run..
high-heeled helter-skelter
the masked savior swings again and again
bloodlust laugh above feminine yells!
Yaaaaay!!
I killed the prom queen
they deserved it anyways
But i'm truly sorry for the mess!!
Back to my 6X9
received with pats on the back
they cant hold me here much longer
Cant wait to be back... Next year!!!!!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
E.M.O
Expressionless, Motionless, Opaque ...
an Enigma beyond Mankind, an Obsticle ...
Elusive, Mysterious, Obscure ...
Envious, Maddening, Obsessed ...
Evil, Morbid, Obscene ....
i Evolve, Mutate, Overcome ....
i Empower, Manipulate, Overthrow ....
for i am the Electro Magnetik Oblivion ....
an Enigma beyond Mankind, an Obsticle ...
Elusive, Mysterious, Obscure ...
Envious, Maddening, Obsessed ...
Evil, Morbid, Obscene ....
i Evolve, Mutate, Overcome ....
i Empower, Manipulate, Overthrow ....
for i am the Electro Magnetik Oblivion ....
Thursday, October 23, 2008
My Princess Crystalline
There she waits
in the doorway
at the ruins of my life
all dressed in white
So delicate
So pure
negating all that is true
she will take me there
she will hold my hand
and lead me
to bliss
so far from here
so far from home
yet so close
to all i held dear
her touch makes me forget
in grateful amnesia
she is my angel in white
my darling crystalline
bringing warmth in this cold heart
filling up the void
giving reason to cheer
a reason to smile
to wipe away the tear
There she waits
till i want her
which is ever so often
now that the burden is heavier
than ever before
Break away these chains
of grief and grim reality
and brings me closer to her
for i need her
all dressed in white
There she goes
and i scream in vain
but she returns
prancing on the back of my palms
in straight lines
Yes
the time is nigh
our time is now
time for her
to blot out the gray
As i breathe her in
i can feel true happiness
and i soar
to the heavens with my princess
my princess crystalline
in the doorway
at the ruins of my life
all dressed in white
So delicate
So pure
negating all that is true
she will take me there
she will hold my hand
and lead me
to bliss
so far from here
so far from home
yet so close
to all i held dear
her touch makes me forget
in grateful amnesia
she is my angel in white
my darling crystalline
bringing warmth in this cold heart
filling up the void
giving reason to cheer
a reason to smile
to wipe away the tear
There she waits
till i want her
which is ever so often
now that the burden is heavier
than ever before
Break away these chains
of grief and grim reality
and brings me closer to her
for i need her
all dressed in white
There she goes
and i scream in vain
but she returns
prancing on the back of my palms
in straight lines
Yes
the time is nigh
our time is now
time for her
to blot out the gray
As i breathe her in
i can feel true happiness
and i soar
to the heavens with my princess
my princess crystalline
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
The Insomniac Dilemma
When are we asleep?
When are we awake?
When do the dreams of our reality cease to be?
When are we alert?
When are we aware?
that the world we wake to......
is not the one we leave when we finally fall asleep!
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Wierdo
Morbid...you call me!!
at least i just think...and dont act in fear!
Emo..
still you choke on that last tear!
Trypanophile...
you know..the blade rusts after more than one use!
Profane...
yet you believe... use... and abuse!
Insecure...
you still run away from your own shadow!
Vane...
still destroyed by that last broken mirror?
Self-obsessed...
you are so caught up in yourself that you forget..!
Wierdo....you scream!
who me??
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Walk Away
So we walked away
Leaving two broken hearts in our wake
We had been led astray
With love for love's sake!
Why did we walk away?
Leaving it all behind
It hurts more this way
A lone soul once entwined!
As we walk away
Forsaking all we thought we knew
Would u look back one last time?
What would u say?
We both pray to the light of day
Will we ever be the same again?
Or is the pain all to much
So we just walk away!!
Leaving two broken hearts in our wake
We had been led astray
With love for love's sake!
Why did we walk away?
Leaving it all behind
It hurts more this way
A lone soul once entwined!
As we walk away
Forsaking all we thought we knew
Would u look back one last time?
What would u say?
We both pray to the light of day
Will we ever be the same again?
Or is the pain all to much
So we just walk away!!
Morbid Illusion v06.06.06
Darkness descends
as the clouds of our downfall gather
Fortified by the fall of man
and the light of good forever extinguished
The black dawn of retribution arises
the time for mercy now past
As the horned one ascends the thorned throne
coronation of the wicked
wretched spawn of the original sin
Bow down to the Eternal Infernal
his domination through damnation
with pleas of last salvation
The black flag flies high
Perfuming the lands with putrid guile
The mortality of morality is upon us
When the left hand rocks the cradle
guiding us to our inevitable demise
Fueled by the serpent's kiss
we walk into our final abyss
can we wake from this morbid illusion?
or are we truly in Hell?
as the clouds of our downfall gather
Fortified by the fall of man
and the light of good forever extinguished
The black dawn of retribution arises
the time for mercy now past
As the horned one ascends the thorned throne
coronation of the wicked
wretched spawn of the original sin
Bow down to the Eternal Infernal
his domination through damnation
with pleas of last salvation
The black flag flies high
Perfuming the lands with putrid guile
The mortality of morality is upon us
When the left hand rocks the cradle
guiding us to our inevitable demise
Fueled by the serpent's kiss
we walk into our final abyss
can we wake from this morbid illusion?
or are we truly in Hell?
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Trypanophile
Pierced
splintered soul sorrowspike
Sliced
scarlet tinged dreamless night
Separated
in alter-ego equilibrium
Regenerated
agitated subconscious intra-cranium
Embraced
nirvana with needled concurrency
Graced
united in bloodletted extacy
splintered soul sorrowspike
Sliced
scarlet tinged dreamless night
Separated
in alter-ego equilibrium
Regenerated
agitated subconscious intra-cranium
Embraced
nirvana with needled concurrency
Graced
united in bloodletted extacy
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Mourn the Living
Wind swept mirthless laugh,
Chills the starless silent night.
Untouched... unscathed etched epitaph,
Blurred by tearful sights.
Yet... happy to be alive,
Cherishing every suffocated breath.
And smiles of thy children naive,
Unknown to the pleasures of death!
Proud of your soul,
Bringing you to your knees!
In front of the God shaped hole,
Devoted... condemned to please!!
Enjoying the everlasting silence,
Muted shrieks of inner violence!!
To sin without signs of conscience,
Alive only for the sake of utter defiance.
Reeking in self-inseminated gluttonous filth,
For the undying want for more!
Shackled to self-imposed guilt,
Suffering the murderer, pitying the whore!!
One happy flicker in your stunted life,
Drowned by torrential sorrow!
The angst-borne teen still holds the knife,
For want of a reason to stay alive!!
Mourn not the dead..
For we are still six feet under!
Mourn but the living
For you are the ones truly lead asunder!!
Mourn not the dead..
For we have already paid our debt!
Mourn the living..
For you have not joined us yet!!
Chills the starless silent night.
Untouched... unscathed etched epitaph,
Blurred by tearful sights.
Yet... happy to be alive,
Cherishing every suffocated breath.
And smiles of thy children naive,
Unknown to the pleasures of death!
Proud of your soul,
Bringing you to your knees!
In front of the God shaped hole,
Devoted... condemned to please!!
Enjoying the everlasting silence,
Muted shrieks of inner violence!!
To sin without signs of conscience,
Alive only for the sake of utter defiance.
Reeking in self-inseminated gluttonous filth,
For the undying want for more!
Shackled to self-imposed guilt,
Suffering the murderer, pitying the whore!!
One happy flicker in your stunted life,
Drowned by torrential sorrow!
The angst-borne teen still holds the knife,
For want of a reason to stay alive!!
Mourn not the dead..
For we are still six feet under!
Mourn but the living
For you are the ones truly lead asunder!!
Mourn not the dead..
For we have already paid our debt!
Mourn the living..
For you have not joined us yet!!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Crawling Back to Insanity!
Black droplets on the windowpane,
Blurring out the starless night.
The six-legged knows its fate,
Bitter winter's inevitable plight!
Trickling down our glassy stare,
Like a Bloodletting's vein.
Eliciting our lucid nightmare,
Never-ending pulsating pain!
Shadows thrown at the walls,
Betrays it's former self.
The flickering candle laughs at us all,
Darkening our once happy shell!
For it's not pessimism...
just nihilism!
For its not optimism...
just escapism!
But like every dark,we hope for light,
Awaiting tomorrow's dawn.
Trying to regain myopic sight,
In the hope for a life redrawn!
Just like the six-legged one in sheer vanity,
Creeps out of the warmth with muted profanity.
Like it,we look for fresh mundanity,
And crawl back to insanity!!
Failed by time-tried masochism,
we look for new pain.
Leaping into our neo-chasm,
Into the dark room once again!!!
Blurring out the starless night.
The six-legged knows its fate,
Bitter winter's inevitable plight!
Trickling down our glassy stare,
Like a Bloodletting's vein.
Eliciting our lucid nightmare,
Never-ending pulsating pain!
Shadows thrown at the walls,
Betrays it's former self.
The flickering candle laughs at us all,
Darkening our once happy shell!
For it's not pessimism...
just nihilism!
For its not optimism...
just escapism!
But like every dark,we hope for light,
Awaiting tomorrow's dawn.
Trying to regain myopic sight,
In the hope for a life redrawn!
Just like the six-legged one in sheer vanity,
Creeps out of the warmth with muted profanity.
Like it,we look for fresh mundanity,
And crawl back to insanity!!
Failed by time-tried masochism,
we look for new pain.
Leaping into our neo-chasm,
Into the dark room once again!!!
Friday, July 18, 2008
BimboTiCide
surefire bimbo recognition test...
decreased I.Q....increased chest!
Reveling in utter stupidity
reeking disgust...loathing virginity!
putrid over-tactile syndrome
what a waste of the XX chromosome!
like a plague...existing to multiply!
before the entire human race they stupefy
(they need to die!!)
we scream...
BimboTiCide!!
(take them away!!)
we need...
BimboTiCide
(Do your part today!!)
perfumed profanity with a red-lipped smile,
camouflaging their underlying guile!
decreasing intellect with excruciating speed!
A mascara massacre... thats what they need!
we scream...
BimboTiCide!!
(waste them again!!)
we need...
BimboTiCide!!
(fade them into pain!!)
BimboTiCide
they will f!@#$%g pay!
BimboTiCide
slay one today!
decreased I.Q....increased chest!
Reveling in utter stupidity
reeking disgust...loathing virginity!
putrid over-tactile syndrome
what a waste of the XX chromosome!
like a plague...existing to multiply!
before the entire human race they stupefy
(they need to die!!)
we scream...
BimboTiCide!!
(take them away!!)
we need...
BimboTiCide
(Do your part today!!)
perfumed profanity with a red-lipped smile,
camouflaging their underlying guile!
decreasing intellect with excruciating speed!
A mascara massacre... thats what they need!
we scream...
BimboTiCide!!
(waste them again!!)
we need...
BimboTiCide!!
(fade them into pain!!)
BimboTiCide
they will f!@#$%g pay!
BimboTiCide
slay one today!
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Descending
(this one was written very long ago... found it recently...so posted it now.... forgive the immaturity!)
Disillusioned ideals
Misguided fortunes
Hiding behind disguised failures
Descending so low.
Descending in to agony
Down the faded line
Of love and lust
Of hate and self loathing
Falling into the depths
Of mental writhing
Battling the unseen tear
The unheard cry
Putting on a façade of valor
Masking my ghostly pallor
Descending so low
So low
Breeding unseen demons
Long laid to rest within myself
Yet I laugh
Deceiving……descending
Deceiving the “conscienceless”
Mocking the “soulless”
Unknowing of my own
Slowly burning away
Tormented by own reflection
Tortured by my own touch
Sickened by my own breath
Deadened by my own life
Reeking of decadence
I can’t stand my own decay
I can feel myself
Slowly slip away
Misguided fortunes
Hiding behind disguised failures
Descending so low.
Descending in to agony
Down the faded line
Of love and lust
Of hate and self loathing
Falling into the depths
Of mental writhing
Battling the unseen tear
The unheard cry
Putting on a façade of valor
Masking my ghostly pallor
Descending so low
So low
Breeding unseen demons
Long laid to rest within myself
Yet I laugh
Deceiving……descending
Deceiving the “conscienceless”
Mocking the “soulless”
Unknowing of my own
Slowly burning away
Tormented by own reflection
Tortured by my own touch
Sickened by my own breath
Deadened by my own life
Reeking of decadence
I can’t stand my own decay
I can feel myself
Slowly slip away
Monday, June 2, 2008
Inside Her Eyes!
Inside her eyes
flows timeless beauty
deceiving an ageless curse
coursing through her veins!
Inside her eyes
lies always the gleam of hope
the gaze of perfection
juxtaposing inadequacy!
Inside her eyes
rapturous clarity of the sky, dominating rage of the sun
paralysing fear in the night
tearful sorrow in the rain!
Inside her eyes
an unfathomable depth
hiding the priceless answers of life
the clandestine secrets in death!
Inside her eyes
there dwells the uncontrollable force
to love and it will be unconditional
to hate and it will be unconventional!
Inside her eyes
we stare into the void
in constant search for the source
where her soul once was!
flows timeless beauty
deceiving an ageless curse
coursing through her veins!
Inside her eyes
lies always the gleam of hope
the gaze of perfection
juxtaposing inadequacy!
Inside her eyes
rapturous clarity of the sky, dominating rage of the sun
paralysing fear in the night
tearful sorrow in the rain!
Inside her eyes
an unfathomable depth
hiding the priceless answers of life
the clandestine secrets in death!
Inside her eyes
there dwells the uncontrollable force
to love and it will be unconditional
to hate and it will be unconventional!
Inside her eyes
we stare into the void
in constant search for the source
where her soul once was!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
When Shadows Betray!
Who do we turn to?
when our own walk away!
where do we run to?
when the only path is dismay!
where do we go?
when the very air you breathe chokes us!
where do we lay?
when the gardens we touch turn to dust!
what do we believe?
when the life we spend is but a lie!
what life do we lead then?
when the only truth is to die and bleed!
what can we say?
when our own voice leads us astray!
what can we do?
when even our shadows betray!
when our own walk away!
where do we run to?
when the only path is dismay!
where do we go?
when the very air you breathe chokes us!
where do we lay?
when the gardens we touch turn to dust!
what do we believe?
when the life we spend is but a lie!
what life do we lead then?
when the only truth is to die and bleed!
what can we say?
when our own voice leads us astray!
what can we do?
when even our shadows betray!
Monday, May 5, 2008
Apostle Of Apostasy
Praise the non-believer
walk in the darkened path
no... we can't live forever
but we'll sure do our unholy part!
burn the priest at the stake
take in the greying smoke
relish in the ashes of the wake,
estinguish all feelings of hope!!
follow the
apostle of apostasy
hold up the
banner of blashphemy!
hear the cries of hate profanity!
(screams of pure insanity)
bloom in their suffering
(throes of sheer extacy)
strangle their pride vanity!
(perverted fantasy)
smite them all
(fucking idiosyncrasy)
following the
apostle of apostasy
holding up the
banner of blashphemy!
merciless mindless slaughter
takes every son, every daughter
brother slaying brother
we can hear his maniacal laughter!
following the
apostle of apostasy
holding up the
banner of blashphemy!
plague the "holy land"
raise up the left hand!
we carry forth his fiery message
scarred with his infernal five-pointed brand!
following the
apostle of apostasy
holding up the
banner of blashphemy!
we are the apostles of apostasy
holding up the banner of blasphemy!
our name is legion,
for we are many!!
walk in the darkened path
no... we can't live forever
but we'll sure do our unholy part!
burn the priest at the stake
take in the greying smoke
relish in the ashes of the wake,
estinguish all feelings of hope!!
follow the
apostle of apostasy
hold up the
banner of blashphemy!
hear the cries of hate profanity!
(screams of pure insanity)
bloom in their suffering
(throes of sheer extacy)
strangle their pride vanity!
(perverted fantasy)
smite them all
(fucking idiosyncrasy)
following the
apostle of apostasy
holding up the
banner of blashphemy!
merciless mindless slaughter
takes every son, every daughter
brother slaying brother
we can hear his maniacal laughter!
following the
apostle of apostasy
holding up the
banner of blashphemy!
plague the "holy land"
raise up the left hand!
we carry forth his fiery message
scarred with his infernal five-pointed brand!
following the
apostle of apostasy
holding up the
banner of blashphemy!
we are the apostles of apostasy
holding up the banner of blasphemy!
our name is legion,
for we are many!!
Friday, May 2, 2008
My Oblivion
Secluded rapture of a life unseen
I dwell within these emotional seams
Shunned by the accepted light,
Hiding behind the black curtains
These black curtains of mine!
Uncried sorrows and joys devoid of smile,
I’m living a life not worthwhile!
Retreating to the dark silhouettes
The dark confines of my mind!
Extinguished, the flame of existence that once burnt
Banished to the shadowy silence of this pathetic lie!
Speak in whispers; there is never anyone to hear
The grieving epiphany, my symphony dirge!
Forever unforgiven, always forgotten,
His Hand seems to have missed me!
The skies above eternally overcast
Flourishing with the demons of my hurtful past!
Dreams bring release, but they too seem to cease,
The line between sleep and black grows faint,
Colors degenerate, embraced by grey!
You’d be better off let me be,
Hibernating in this eternal mental void
This sweet oblivion in me!!
Saturday, April 19, 2008
e-VIL!
Virtual brutality
Cyber immortality
Unparalleled might
I will break you… byte by byte!
Bow to your new master
Pandemic processor
I am the diabolic killswitch
Formatting… it will slay you faster!
Systemic genocide
Program files are indeed sweeter
Binary suicide
I am the morbid parameter!
I’m here for the mother
Hexadecimal waste in my path
Defragmentation disorder
Kneel to the lord of static laugh!
Viral infestation
Data decimation
Infernal infiltration
Catalytic corruption
My cause is not wanton
Precise pandemonium
Not even your angels can save you
McAfee and Norton!
Till I am wanted, I am a ghost
Benign, never to be found
Feeding on the abundant host
Razing your OS to the ground!
My job is simple
To kill and replicate
Multiply in exponential
Smile as you degenerate!
I will shut you down
I am e-VIL
I will shut you down
Ctrl+Alt+
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Mein freund…. Meiner bruder… Mein Verrate!
It was I who was betrayed!
Words you offered
Tears it rendered
I feel cornered
Then deeply angered!
Your jest paid its price
Two broken hearts you add to your score
I bet it felt nice
To catch the pieces of the friendship you tore
Words misguided
Resulting pain
Pun intended
What did you gain?
Your churlish carnal lust
Buried the mirth we once had
Your target so unjust
It was you, and it drives me mad!
How can I calm her?
When I am still torn
I considered you more of a brother
A feeling, now long forlorn
You healed our wounds… Her and I
Wiped away my fears …
But beneath all the brotherly wool
You are fiercer than a pack of wolves
The knife in your hand cuts deeper
leaves scars for which none can atone
Don’t you know?
The grief you cause lasts longer
For the first time …I feel so alone!
Freund
Bruder
jetzt
Verrate
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Perception her weapon!
Misguided pride thus,
dreamy illusions surround me...
Far as i cared,
"The world revolved around me"
Perception her weapon,
Her daggered words they,
stirred my stubborn slumber...
Twas then i realised,
"My world revolved around her"
dreamy illusions surround me...
Far as i cared,
"The world revolved around me"
Perception her weapon,
Her daggered words they,
stirred my stubborn slumber...
Twas then i realised,
"My world revolved around her"
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Twisted Tears!
I jerked your neck,
Emptied the barrel in your brow!
You fall to the floor,
It’s all over now!
Added one to my own
No one would ever win
With you, I’ve slain my soul!
I ask your life drained eye.
Silence is no comfort
As darkness descends upon my life.
I fall too, at your feet
Beside your mortal shell!
I stare at my bloodstained palm
I’m already in hell!
Not the end, but how we once were!
Your smile, my treasure,
You won’t smile anymore!
My reflection in your red lake
I can’t recognize me!
The gun slips away
Hate, hate, hate is all I see!
I hate you
But more than that
I hate, I hate loving you!
All your evil guile now gone!
Like the first day, minus the blood
What have I done?
The winter cold grips, frozen colder
Grief wells in me
Looking upwards at the supposed “higher power”
Couldn’t you save her from me?
No penance, no vengeance!
No retribution, no redemption!
Nothing there to live for,
I’ve just killed the only one I’d die for!
You blood, my sweat,
Our tears!
My fist, the wall,
Our scars!
Like an angel shines on me!
I vow to be with you
From here to eternity!
One more bullet, I need to use
I close my eyes; pull the trigger once more,
The last of my twisted tears falls on you!!
Thursday, April 3, 2008
DEN MØRKE PROFETIEN!!!
Jeg kan høre,i avstanden,
vår hellig mor som skriker blodig mord
vitne for uskyldig...
for all de myrdet
Hvor er den som du kaller GUD ?
Lar crucify ham ! !!!!
Hvor er den som du kaller SATAN ? ?
Lar enthrone ham ! !!!
Hvor tar mitt liv meg ? ???
TIL Å OPPFYLLE DEN MØRKE PROFETIEN ! !!!
Bastard sønner, whore døtre
som brenner på pålen
drukner i sjøen
av tortur og flammende agoni
ingenting ny for meg
bringer av DEN MØRKE PROFETIEN ! ! !
å ståing på kanten
av liv og død som
du tigger til meg du tigger for varighet som
avventer mitt "hellig påbud"
hmhmahahahahahaha
meg MØRKE PROFETIEN ! ! !
Hvor er den som du kaller GUD ?
Lar crucify ham ! !!!!
Hvor er den som du kaller SATAN ? ?
Lar enthrone ham ! !!!
Hvor tar mitt liv meg ? ???
TIL Å OPPFYLLE DEN MØRKE PROFETIEN ! !!!
Råtten pestilence
onde trass
sacrilege er kunner som jeg ser
fuck du. .....o hellig trinity
Hvor er den som du kaller GUD ?
Lar crucify ham ! !!!!
Hvor er den som du kaller SATAN ? ?
Lar enthrone ham ! !!!
Hvor tar mitt liv meg ? ???
TIL Å OPPFYLLE DEN MØRKE PROFETIEN ! !!!
Hvor er den som du kaller GUD ?
Hvor er den som du kaller SATAN ? ?
drep deg...
jeg er all!!
vår hellig mor som skriker blodig mord
vitne for uskyldig...
for all de myrdet
Hvor er den som du kaller GUD ?
Lar crucify ham ! !!!!
Hvor er den som du kaller SATAN ? ?
Lar enthrone ham ! !!!
Hvor tar mitt liv meg ? ???
TIL Å OPPFYLLE DEN MØRKE PROFETIEN ! !!!
Bastard sønner, whore døtre
som brenner på pålen
drukner i sjøen
av tortur og flammende agoni
ingenting ny for meg
bringer av DEN MØRKE PROFETIEN ! ! !
å ståing på kanten
av liv og død som
du tigger til meg du tigger for varighet som
avventer mitt "hellig påbud"
hmhmahahahahahaha
meg MØRKE PROFETIEN ! ! !
Hvor er den som du kaller GUD ?
Lar crucify ham ! !!!!
Hvor er den som du kaller SATAN ? ?
Lar enthrone ham ! !!!
Hvor tar mitt liv meg ? ???
TIL Å OPPFYLLE DEN MØRKE PROFETIEN ! !!!
Råtten pestilence
onde trass
sacrilege er kunner som jeg ser
fuck du. .....o hellig trinity
Hvor er den som du kaller GUD ?
Lar crucify ham ! !!!!
Hvor er den som du kaller SATAN ? ?
Lar enthrone ham ! !!!
Hvor tar mitt liv meg ? ???
TIL Å OPPFYLLE DEN MØRKE PROFETIEN ! !!!
Hvor er den som du kaller GUD ?
Hvor er den som du kaller SATAN ? ?
drep deg...
jeg er all!!
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
My Rage Exterior (Tormentor)
Too long I waited
In grief, in hurt, in fear
Its time to escape, time to give back
Make them pay for every tear
Resurrecting my rage exterior!
Eradicating my dead interior!
Submitting to my hate exterior!
The tormented …now the tormentor!
I’ve lost control
Blinded the light in me
My wrath made me whole
Resurrecting my rage exterior!
Eradicating my dead interior!
Submitting to my hate exterior!
The tormented …now the tormentor!
Tore out my soul
Disconnected the pain
Not even your God can save you from me now
The Devil tries to dig deeper in his burning hole
Resurrecting my rage exterior!
Eradicating my dead interior!
Submitting to my hate exterior!
The tormented …now the tormentor!
If you had ever caused me sorrow
Its time now to flee
You may never even see tomorrow
There’s no mercy left in me
My rage exterior… resurrected!
My dead exterior… eradicated!
My hate exterior… submitted!
Tormentor…
No mercy!
No surrender!
No prisoners!
Only My rage exterior!!
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
… And that’s why…
Still looking for a reason?
A reason for you and me
A reason for us to be real
… And that’s why…
To the questions haunting me
To the way we once did feel
… And that’s why…
Was It the reason you walked away?
Could u even hear my hurt dismay?
… And that’s why…
The pain you made me feel
The day with a gold band I did kneel
… And that’s why…
Was it the times you said you cried?
For the times you thought I never tried?
… And that’s why…
Then why could I see you betray?
Fake tears, evil grins, heart clad in gray!
… And that’s why…
Now my sadness, my rage will purge
You sang my departure, now suffer your dirge!
… And that’s why…
… And that’s why…
I pulled the trigger
… And that’s why…
The bloody bullet hole in your head grows bigger
… And that’s why…
My vengeance and me now complete
… And that’s why…
My vengeance…. Oh, its sweet!!
… And that’s why…
you’ll never laugh again
never breathe
… And that’s why…
you’ll never break a heart again!!
Never again!!
… And that’s why…
Sunday, March 30, 2008
VoiCes!
How can I hate you?
I’m not done hating myself!
How can I love you?
I can’t get me to love myself!
Make it stop!
(Please make it stop!)
The war inside my head,
Make it stop!
(Please make it stop!)
These damn voices rust my mind!
How can I feel you?
I’m still using needles to feel the pain!
How can I help you?
These voices have become my bane!
Make it stop!
(Please make it stop!)
The war inside my head,
Make it stop!
(Please make it stop!)
These damn voices rust my mind!
Not your demons…. Only mine!!
I would help you if I could
Damn the rust in my mind!!
I look at the mirror
I scream at what I see!!
I tried to be your savior
Now I wish you would save me!!
Make it stop!
(Please make it stop!)
The war inside my head,
Make it stop!
(Please make it stop!)
These damn voices rust my mind!
I hate it…
I fear it…
I loath it…
But still I bear it…
I hate you!
No… I just hate me
I hate me!
No….its just in my mind
Make it stop!
(Please make it stop!)
The war inside my head,
Make it stop!
(Please make it stop!)
These damn voices rust my mind!
Its twisting me!!
I can’t die with it,
Voices…evil voices in me!!
Make it stop!
(Please make it stop!)
The war inside my head,
Make it stop!
(Please make it stop!)
These damn voices rust my mind!
Get them out of me
These damn voices corroding me
The tell me I am evil
Please…save me from me!
Please…save me from me!
Please…save me from me!
Friday, March 14, 2008
As always for you!
....as always for you
my bleeding eyes cry red tears....
...as always for you
my heart fills with frozen fears....
...as always for you
my palms burn with sinful lust...
....as always for you
my soul retches for a reason unjust...
...as always for you
my lips quiver with eternal wait....
...as always for you
i dread your leaving gait...
...as always for you
these thoughts keep haunting me...
... as always for you
a blackened angel i must be...
...as always for you
I can't see the pain flow...
...as always for you
say it...say you will never go....
...as always for you
my bleeding eyes cry red tears...
...as always for you
my heart fills with frozen fears!
my bleeding eyes cry red tears....
...as always for you
my heart fills with frozen fears....
...as always for you
my palms burn with sinful lust...
....as always for you
my soul retches for a reason unjust...
...as always for you
my lips quiver with eternal wait....
...as always for you
i dread your leaving gait...
...as always for you
these thoughts keep haunting me...
... as always for you
a blackened angel i must be...
...as always for you
I can't see the pain flow...
...as always for you
say it...say you will never go....
...as always for you
my bleeding eyes cry red tears...
...as always for you
my heart fills with frozen fears!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Roija
The gale brought a fragrant tune,
to accompany a sorrowed tale.
The reason for this i never knew,
my faith at the time did fail.
A tale of shattered soul it brought to me,
with grief in its hand.
he wished for that which could never be,
his cries in vain screamed out through the land.
"Sweet roija" he cried "sweet roija" he swore,
why can't i reach it to thee?
"Sweet roija" he moaned "sweet roija" he roared,
It will be yours,before the end of me!!!
His hand reached out,
His soulrose in his grip.
Reaching out with so much doubt,
Praying for the safety of his gift.
O roija, O roija, i won't let you fade,
i'll keep u close to me.
O roija, my roija, in your hand will be laid,
With a happy heart, on bended knee!!
Through snow and fire, with only the storm of desire,
he trudged on with frozen fears.
Just for his love to feel, for her to see,
what she meant to him for years.
Wut what he saw when he got to her,
It pains me to even say.
Down his cheek ran a single tear,
Six feet under now she lay.....
O roija, sweet roija,
Withered roija now he'd say.
"not anymore i can live",
And alongside his love, his roija....he lay!!!
to accompany a sorrowed tale.
The reason for this i never knew,
my faith at the time did fail.
A tale of shattered soul it brought to me,
with grief in its hand.
he wished for that which could never be,
his cries in vain screamed out through the land.
"Sweet roija" he cried "sweet roija" he swore,
why can't i reach it to thee?
"Sweet roija" he moaned "sweet roija" he roared,
It will be yours,before the end of me!!!
His hand reached out,
His soulrose in his grip.
Reaching out with so much doubt,
Praying for the safety of his gift.
O roija, O roija, i won't let you fade,
i'll keep u close to me.
O roija, my roija, in your hand will be laid,
With a happy heart, on bended knee!!
Through snow and fire, with only the storm of desire,
he trudged on with frozen fears.
Just for his love to feel, for her to see,
what she meant to him for years.
Wut what he saw when he got to her,
It pains me to even say.
Down his cheek ran a single tear,
Six feet under now she lay.....
O roija, sweet roija,
Withered roija now he'd say.
"not anymore i can live",
And alongside his love, his roija....he lay!!!
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